The nerve pain running down my right leg yesterday was the worst it has been for a long time, and it stayed at that level for most of the day and night. Needing to be awake by 4:15 this morning for work meant I was in bed even earlier than normal last night, but I still didn’t sleep well. Or enough. My original plan was to go to the gym after work, but my zombie-like state upon waking had me considering the potential of shuffling things around. The flare up of the pain in the leg mid-morning kept me waffling on whether or not to train today or postpone it until tomorrow morning. Both choices weren’t overly appealing, but knowing that I’m on a bit of a deload made it easier to stick with training this afternoon.
Training after work usually hasn’t really been enjoyable since the injury. Even though my body is holding up better through long hours of work better than it was when I returned from my leave of absence, “holding up” is still the best way to put it. After work, my back is achier and the nerve pains/tingling in the legs increases, and I haven’t even begun to talk about the permanent state of fatigue I am in on this medication. Training tomorrow morning might have been appealing; however, I was also greatly looking forward to having a slow and leisurely start to my Thursday.
There are not many days in the week where I have the luxury of starting slow. If I’m not working in the morning, then I’m going to the gym. Or an appointment. Or church. I got my workout in this afternoon, so that I can sleep in. Okay, so I will probably still set an alarm, but I can hit the snooze button. I can stay curled up beneath the quilts, petting the cat and listening to her purr until I feel inspired to drag myself out of bed. I can make myself a cup of coffee and a hot breakfast. I can have a soak in the tub. I can prep my food for later in the day, read a book, tidy something, do some stretching. All these things and more can be done before I go to work for my closing shift, and that was a luxury I could not sacrifice for today.