Competition is 12 days away.
I opened my this week’s program this morning eager to see what was in store for me. Although this is far from my first competition, it will be my first competition with a different coach and training program. Since he sends me a program and I do my best to execute it on my own, we are still in the process of learning about each other. I am figuring out his training philosophy, while he is figuring out what I respond to and what works best for me. That’s a much slower and more difficult process when your point of contact is online rather than in person, but I think we’re getting there.
Looking at this week’s program, I am unbelievably excited. I should also be incredibly nervous, but so far I’m not. Volume is even lower this week, but I am looking at hitting two gym PRs. The first one will be tomorrow morning when I squat, while the second will be Thursday morning’s deadlifts.
My coach has programmed a single deadlift rep at 285 pounds. Although I have deadlifted more than that in competition, I have never pulled that much weight in training. Not ever! After pulling four singles at 275 last week, I feel confident about this week’s deadlifts, even if it probably will feel tough.
Tomorrow’s squat is where I should be feeling the fear. One single rep at 245 pounds! Again, this is a weight that I have done in competition but never in training. At the risk of sounding like a broken record, I haven’t had this much weight on my back for a very long time…not since August 19, 2016! It’s been more than a year since I’ve had this kind of weight on my back, and only in competitions. After nearly 10 months of dealing with back issues, I should be anxious about this squat. In the gym tomorrow morning, I might be, probably will be, at least to some degree. Right now though, I am practically quivering with excitement.
Wanna know why? Because as scary as it should be and truly is, I feel ready and strong enough and capable. I’ve seen my numbers these past few weeks and been amazed at what I am doing now compared to in the past. Even though I will always, always have a measure of fear about heavy squats, I know I can.
And then there is that big goal I have for this competition. In my age/weight class for 100% RAW (which is the federation this competition is with), the world record squat is 248 pounds. 248. Let that sink in for a moment. I have done 248 in competition before. I have done 253 in competition before. Both times at a lower weight class. Since I moved up an age class this year, I’ve had this goal in mind. Heck, I had it in mind even before I moved up an age class! And before I hurt my back. Healthy…I know I am capable of breaking that record. It’s been a long, tough year physically, so I have been cautious about this goal. I’ve always believed that it was within reach, but my ability to reach it hasn’t always been solid. As my training has progressed recently, I have felt my confidence growing and the goal has been inching closer. If I am successful in my 245 pound squat tomorrow…
Let’s not get too far ahead of ourselves! The most important thing right now is to move the weight well and stay healthy. I’m also planning on wearing my singlet to the gym this week, at least for day 1 and day 2. I usually do wear the singlet once or twice prior to a competition to refamiliarize myself with it how looks and feels and to get over my self-consciousness in it! Since this will be my first competition at this heaviest, for me, weight class, I tried the singlet on this morning to ensure that it still actually fit. It does. That’s a relief!