Climbing

“My soul should always look back and wonder at the mountains I had climbed and the rivers I had forged and the challenges which still await down the road. I am strengthened by that knowledge.” ~ Maya Angelou

Words are important to me. They have weight and substance and power. I soak them in, for good or bad, to savour or stew. Words have the power to inspire, motivate, encourage, challenge, re-focus, but they also have the power to deflate, to bite and sting, to amplify fear and insecurities, to steal confidence and joy and peace. Unfortunately, I cling to the bad words as much as I do the good and, when you add a lengthy season of pain and struggle, the negative words tend to be overwhelming.

Words in song are just as important to me as words written or said out loud. Back in my running days, the music I listened to as I ran was of the utmost importance, because I needed the right beat, the right attitude to keep myself going when the legs got tired and the lungs were screaming. Ironically, I don’t really care much about what music is playing at the gym, because I am usually too focused on what I’m doing to truly hear the music. However, on my way to the gym, the music I play is of the utmost importance to me. I crank it as loud as I can and sing along. My pre-gym playlist is limited to a dozen songs, but each one speaks to me.

Around this time last year, I had focused in on Eminem’s Lose Yourself as my theme song. I had a big goal, and I wanted to seize my one chance in that first competition of the year. While I didn’t achieve my ultimate goal, I still had a successful competition. As I am attempting to gear up for Provincials, I have settled on my theme song for these next several weeks. Yes, it’s a Miley Cyrus song, and yes, I don’t really care! I like what I like for what it speaks to me.

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming
But there’s a voice inside my head saying
“You’ll never reach it”

Every step I’m taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose

Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I’m not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

‘Cause there’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose

These current struggles, while not the end of the world, certainly feel like an uphill battle and I need to keep pushing, climbing.

 

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